A Lost Relationship and Grief.

  “For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven” – Ecclesiastes 3:1 I let go of many things moving to Seattle almost a year ago. I said, “Goodbye,” to many friendships, severing ties with some people, fully knowing I would never see many of them again. I maintained the important relationships […]

An Invitation into the Wilderness.

This post was originally written for my graduate school, The Seattle School of Theology & Psychology, about being in the wilderness. It was a blessing to write and an honor to receive some of the feedback from readers, so I decided to post it here as well. To read the original post, click here. Over the […]

Psalm 37 :: Delight in the Lord.

I must admit that I find myself at a fork in the proverbial road. I have two options: continue walking down a particularly challenging, painful, and strenuous path — one that may or may not lead to a beautiful destination…or, change directions and begin a new journey, down a path whose destination is known. I think we […]

Shame and Grief.

I find myself staring down the barrel of a loaded gun. I’ve spent my whole adult life distracting myself from the grief I feel over a part of me that I have never allowed myself to fully name or know. Whenever I began to put words around this desire — to name this bit of me that has been repressed and […]

The Slow Work of God

Prayer of Teilhard de Chardin Patient Trust Above all, trust in the slow work of God. We are quite naturally impatient in everything to reach the end without delay. We should like to skip the intermediate stages. We are impatient of being on the way to something unknown, something new. And yet it is the […]

Day #1 of Grad School – Chaos in Overdrive!

So far, grad school is like this: hjlbev;ksjbn;wsjk W:djvbXJAD BV:”OXWBL;DLWB V:UHev None of it makes sense. Words are spoken that have no meaning. Reading material just seems like ineligible hieroglyphics of nonsense. It’s chaos, it’s disruptive, but it’s transformative. It’s been one day and I’m already begging for more. Call me an educational masochist or call me crazy, […]

Crossroads and Control

My life has been uncontrollably chaotic in the past few weeks and I haven’t had a chance to catch my breath, let alone sit down and write about this chaos. In fact, as my days increase in busy work and decrease with meaning, writing is the last thing on my mind and I find my […]

Great Expectations, Great Disappointments

For the first time in my life, I have consistently been experiencing great disappointment. God has opened several exciting doors these past few months, but just as soon as they opened, they would close with full force. With each phone interview or e-mail, my expectations for God to finally work everything out in my favor […]