Why Are We So Mean?

“Hatred stirs up conflict, but love covers over all wrongs.” — Proverbs 10:12  Behind my kind eyes, smiling face, friendly attitude, and outgoing spirit is the capacity to say the cruelest, most hurtful things to another person. I have belittled, name called, and hurt the most beloved people in my life. Over the past few months, as I work through my own brokenness, I have […]

Fighting When There’s Nothing Left.

This post was originally published for The Seattle School of Theology & Psychology. You can view the original post here. “When the people we love or with whom we have a deep connection stop caring, stop paying attention, stop investing, and stop fighting for the relationship, trust begins to slip away and hurt starts seeping in.” […]

Year One: This Work is F***ing Hard.

***CAUTION! Strong language is used in this post.*** Yesterday brought the completion of my first year of graduate school at The Seattle School of Theology & Psychology, and let me tell you this… This work is fucking hard. I’m not talking about the papers that were written or the projects that were presented to classrooms full of bored-out-of-their-mind faces. […]

A Lost Relationship and Grief.

  “For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven” – Ecclesiastes 3:1 I let go of many things moving to Seattle almost a year ago. I said, “Goodbye,” to many friendships, severing ties with some people, fully knowing I would never see many of them again. I maintained the important relationships […]

The Voices We Hear.

“And I know that I can survive. I will walk through fire to save my life. And I want it, I want my life so bad, I’m doing everything I can. You did not break me, I’m still fighting for peace.” – Sia, Elastic Heart I am surprised at how often I hear the voice of the […]

An Invitation into the Wilderness.

This post was originally written for my graduate school, The Seattle School of Theology & Psychology, about being in the wilderness. It was a blessing to write and an honor to receive some of the feedback from readers, so I decided to post it here as well. To read the original post, click here. Over the […]

Shame and Grief.

I find myself staring down the barrel of a loaded gun. I’ve spent my whole adult life distracting myself from the grief I feel over a part of me that I have never allowed myself to fully name or know. Whenever I began to put words around this desire — to name this bit of me that has been repressed and […]

6 Months Ago…

I’ve kept a prayer journal since high school, which means I’ve been able to chronicle the past 10+ years in writing. I’ve done a pretty good job at documenting everything, too. From break-ups and disappointments, new jobs and resignations, moves, lament, and praises, I’ve covered it all. Praying/writing about the heartbreak, the loss, and the joy throughout my days and weeks […]

The Slow Work of God

Prayer of Teilhard de Chardin Patient Trust Above all, trust in the slow work of God. We are quite naturally impatient in everything to reach the end without delay. We should like to skip the intermediate stages. We are impatient of being on the way to something unknown, something new. And yet it is the […]

Day #1 of Grad School – Chaos in Overdrive!

So far, grad school is like this: hjlbev;ksjbn;wsjk W:djvbXJAD BV:”OXWBL;DLWB V:UHev None of it makes sense. Words are spoken that have no meaning. Reading material just seems like ineligible hieroglyphics of nonsense. It’s chaos, it’s disruptive, but it’s transformative. It’s been one day and I’m already begging for more. Call me an educational masochist or call me crazy, […]